Abandoning Anime

I’m not sure if I can claim to be a part of the anime community anymore. I barely watch it these days.

It’s not that I no longer enjoy anime, but I haven’t watched anything new this year. I tend to just rewatch my favourite series on repeat and sometimes check out a show on Netflix on a whim.

Frankly, if you name a popular anime at the moment, chances are I haven’t seen it. I think the most recent show I watched was Kaguya-sama: Love is War, although I haven’t watched the second season yet.

So, why haven’t I? After all, I am working from home, I have time to catch up. Hell, I have time to rewatch Witchcraft Works for the third time and Miss Kobayashi’s Dragon Maid gods know how many times.

Well, I guess it’s the same reasons I rarely watch any new movies or shows in general. Please bear with me as this might not make any logical sense and putting it into words is proving to be a challenge.

When I go to watch something new, I get stressed before hitting play. I like rewatching things again and again because I know what is going to happen, there is nothing to throw me through a loop or get me overly emotional.

My mental health is tanking, I feel more fragile than I have been in a long time. I feel like I can’t handle any major twists or anything too upsetting. I know this sounds rather pathetic but it’s true.

I always get emotional when watching something. Hells, I’m the girl who cried three times at Big Hero 6. That was when I was in a much better place, too. 

Gaming isn’t so bad, as, for the most part, I can take it at my own pace. Same goes for books. For example, I had to keep taking breaks when I read The Five because it was hard-hitting.

I am going to try to catch up at some point, but for now, I’m sticking with lighter shows. If you have any recommendations, I would love to hear them.