Lockdown Check In

How is everyone holding up?

Funnily enough, I think I’m doing better now than I was back when I wrote Cabin Fever. Probably because I have gotten used to how things operate now. Since then I have been making more of an effort to get into routines. Keeping busy seems to work, for instance. Whether that’s writing, working on Fateless or reading.

Thing is, somedays I have no motivation to do anything. I don’t sleep and all I want to do is lie on the floor of my bedroom and stare at the ceiling. I struggle to drag myself out of bed on most days.

I try to push myself to do something when I get like that, even if it’s something small like reading a chapter or making myself a cup of tea. It’s the little things that make a positive difference, at least for me.

I’ve also started going on walks around my local graveyard and park every two days. Weather permitting and if I can bring myself to of course. Sometimes with my mum or sister, sometimes by myself.

I often return home absolutely exhausted but feeling great. It’s nice to stretch your legs in the fresh air. Plus it’s refreshing to see new faces for the first time in a while, even if its just a wave as we jog past one another.

I have heard that apparently, I might be able to go back to work next month. I hope this turns out to be true. Never anticipated saying this, but I yearn my old daily life including my job.

I am going to celebrate the second we get that green light to return to work and can visit loved ones. I miss hanging out with pals so much. I miss my co-workers’ banter so much. I miss lazing around at Shiloh’s so much.

Still, what keeps me going is the daily reminder that by doing this, I am doing my part. I am doing the right thing keeping myself and my family safe. It sucks so much but man is it going to be a joyous day when we can reunite with dear friends. It’s with that thought in mind that I keep going and push through. One day, things will start to return to normal.

One day.