Happy New Year, everyone! I hope you had a relaxing holiday and are ready for the new year! Because I for one am not.
I reread my last three New Year Rambles and they are rather positive and optimistic, this time around I feel horrid about looking into 2019. Maybe it’s because my mental health is really getting worse or I’m just not as positive as I used to be.
In fact, this time last year I was away with family but this time I couldn’t go as I have coursework to finish, so I’m starting the new year alone. I know that it could be worse, I’m safe at home after all.
I even failed all my resolutions bar one. Back in 2017, I managed to lose just under 2 stone but over the course of 2018, I regained all the weight and then some. I also failed my reading challenge but at least I did manage to post here twice a week.
On a brighter note, I did succeed in getting into college, updating Nerd Rambles and making a few new friends. That’s a few things to be proud of at least.
I know indulging in this bleak outlook and whining will only make things worse for me but I intend to start working on that in the next few days. Also, I just felt a bit put off with all these hyper happy New Year New Me things all over the place and thought someone out there might appreciate a more honest outlook on the new year.
So this year, I haven’t made as many resolutions but I am going to try harder to keep them this year.
First off, as anyone might have guessed is to lose weight. I did it once, I can do it again. My line of thinking is if my body is healthier, it might improve my mental health as well.
Following that while tying into it is to work on my mental health. I have already started looking up advice for dealing with self-care and stress. I haven’t made a self-care plan before so I am not sure how to go about making one.
Last but by no means least is to improve my work. I will work harder in college, on Nerd Rambles and my job. No more excuses, procrastination or half-hearted work. I will strive to be the best I can be.
I can do better, I need to do better. I know it will be hard and at times I will want to scream F it and give up, but I will do my best to become a decent person. It’s now or never, let’s do this 2019!